In the past month, I’ve been absent from social media and focusing on myself and my son. Although I’ve not publicly documented any Year of Fear activities I’ve been embracing fear, anxiety, and uncomfortable events every day.
As my last post identified I ended a relationship that was toxic to both parties and then was faced with a medical issue that I was not caring for properly. I have been amazed at the love and support my friends and family have shown and I’ve also realized those that are incapable of supporting me.
I have evaluated my life and realigned my priorities to achieve happiness and success beyond current measure. I am excited and happy to embark on a new chapter of my life that has already provided abundant gifts and rewards.
During these 32 days I have been focusing on recovering medically and spiritually. It has been the best thing I’ve done for myself. I have re-established my faith in MY Higher Power and I am already witnessing the amazing gifts he/she has for me.
The picture above is my first tattoo, which I got soon after I was discharged from the hospital.
For me, this tattoo signifies survival and acceptance. Trusting in the universe to direct me where I need to go and being able to sense the darkness that will cloud my world.
Jellyfish have been in existence for over 650 million years and are able to easily adapt to changes in climate. They have survived all five major extinction events in the earth’s past and have even contributed to modern medicine with Green fluorescent protein (GFP).
Jellyfish are simple, yet complex creatures they do not rely on gills, lungs or a heart like most animals and have limited swimming capabilities. They must rely on instincts for survival and the currents and winds to transport them.
The jellyfish symbolizes a trust in nature and the ocean to transport and provide for them.
I am re-embarking on Year of Fear with a trust in a greater power to guide me. I will not necessarily post every day but I have committed to publishing, at a minimum, one “Fear” each week, with a goal of publishing three.
Join me on my journey and share your journey and fears with me!
– Always with Love